discouraged.

The title truly says it all. I’ve been really feeling low these past couple days.

I have been dealing with my prolactinoma, and all the bullshit that comes with it. If you’re a new reader, I have prolactinoma, a small benign tumor on my pituitary gland. I have gained more than 45 lbs I’m unable to lose any of it. I am on medication (Cabergoline 1/2 pill, 4 times a week) and with this medication comes horrible side effects. Some of the things I deal with while being on this medication is: nausea, headache, dizziness, and extreme fatigue. It’s not fun.

But going back to the weight gain… I have been working out consistently, watching what I eat, and I am unable to lose any weight. It’s extremely frustrating. There are moments where I just need to take a moment for myself and just cry. I’ve sobbed on the phone to my mom about how much I wish I didn’t have prolactinoma, how much I want to feel beautiful and comfortable in my own skin… it’s heartbreaking.

I try hard to be positive, but it’s very hard. VERY HARD. I don’t know anyone in my life who has prolactinoma. Luckily, I have talked to a few other women through social media (thank goodness for that) & that’s been so nice hearing their stories. Sometimes I just need a place to write down my thoughts, a place to vent. This is why I love blogging.

I hope one day I can have all of these hard times behind me, and I will feel good about myself, inside and out. Health is so important, and until you’re going through something– you can easily take it for granted. So to everyone out there that isn’t struggling with health problems or weight loss issues, be thankful. It is truly taking a toll on me mentally, I’m just so tired of feeling shitty and feeling shitty about myself.

xo

review: influenster spirit vox box.

Hey everyone! I have another Influenster box to review! I love getting these boxes and trying out all the new products. So I thank Influenster for sending me this!

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First off, I love the Yogi Tea samples that they sent! Believe it or not, I’ve never had Yogi tea before. I got two flavors: Green Tea Kombucha & Green Tea Blueberry Slim Life. The tea I first tried was the Green Tea Blueberry (it’s the one pictured) and it was delicious. I am so happy that they also sent a $1.00 coupon on any box of Yogi Tea- I will be using it at my local Target or grocery store!

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The next item was a Snickers Crisper bar. I’m not a huge candy fan, but I do love a good chocolate bar every once in a while! I loved how it wasn’t just one full bar, but divided into two little bars. It had peanuts, caramel, chocolate, and crisp rice. YUM. I would definitely buy this product if I’m feeling like a sweet treat!

Sweet Spot Labs are moist wipettes to freshen up your lady parts with. Easy to use, just throw them in your purse and take them with you anywhere. I have never heard of this brand before, and always use Summer’s Eve wipes. I love the different smells of these ones, and they work great! I am very sensitive when it comes to feminine products, but these didn’t irritate me at all. They balance PH levels (which is SO important) and keep you feeling clean! I would repurchase these items in store, and recommend them to a friend. One of my favorite products in the box, believe it or not!

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The last item in the box is the NYC New York Color Demi lip and cheek tint. I’m not a huge fan of lip and cheek duo products usually because they never seem to look good on me. Also, when I usually put them on my lips I find them to be very drying. The color I received is called “001 Cheeky Pink”. It looks like a nail polish, because of the packaging- which I found interesting. The applicator is nice because you can really just glide it on your lips, or dab it on your cheeks and rub it in. To be honest, I don’t really like the color on myself, but maybe someone who enjoys a vibrant pink will love it. It retails for $3.99, very inexpensive which is a plus.

I hoped you enjoyed my review! Have you tried any of these products?

xo

*I was given this box complimentary of Influenster for testing purposes, all opinions are my own.