The title truly says it all. I’ve been really feeling low these past couple days.
I have been dealing with my prolactinoma, and all the bullshit that comes with it. If you’re a new reader, I have prolactinoma, a small benign tumor on my pituitary gland. I have gained more than 45 lbs I’m unable to lose any of it. I am on medication (Cabergoline 1/2 pill, 4 times a week) and with this medication comes horrible side effects. Some of the things I deal with while being on this medication is: nausea, headache, dizziness, and extreme fatigue. It’s not fun.
But going back to the weight gain… I have been working out consistently, watching what I eat, and I am unable to lose any weight. It’s extremely frustrating. There are moments where I just need to take a moment for myself and just cry. I’ve sobbed on the phone to my mom about how much I wish I didn’t have prolactinoma, how much I want to feel beautiful and comfortable in my own skin… it’s heartbreaking.
I try hard to be positive, but it’s very hard. VERY HARD. I don’t know anyone in my life who has prolactinoma. Luckily, I have talked to a few other women through social media (thank goodness for that) & that’s been so nice hearing their stories. Sometimes I just need a place to write down my thoughts, a place to vent. This is why I love blogging.
I hope one day I can have all of these hard times behind me, and I will feel good about myself, inside and out. Health is so important, and until you’re going through something– you can easily take it for granted. So to everyone out there that isn’t struggling with health problems or weight loss issues, be thankful. It is truly taking a toll on me mentally, I’m just so tired of feeling shitty and feeling shitty about myself.