Happy 2019 everyone! I’m really excited for the new year. Now that Eloise is with us, I’m thinking of all the memories we are going to make this year! There will be a lot of “firsts”, and I just want to make sure I soak it all in.
read more books (my goal is 5-8 books this year)
go back to school in the fall (juggle being a full-time student & mommy)
practice gratitude/ be more positive
pay off debt & save more money
go on one family vacation
blog more & write more
go on more walks & be outdoors more
I really wanted to make goals that were attainable to reach… how many times have you made goals that were just unrealistic? I have, and it’s a waste of time. So, this year I’m focusing on things that matter: my family, hobbies, finances, etc. What are some goals you have for 2019?
As of the 30th, Eloise is officially 1 month old! As I sit and type this, I cannot believe how quickly this month has flown by. I won’t lie and say this month has been rainbows and sunshine… because it hasn’t. This month has been extremely hard, exhausting, and at times frustrating.
My biggest struggle this month has been breastfeeding. Not only was I in so much pain because her latch wasn’t good, but I developed mastitis and needed to get on antibiotics. It is FINALLY getting better, and I’m able to breastfeed Eloise more. Thank goodness. Breastfeeding is NO joke, and I always thought it was something that was going to come easy and natural… that isn’t the case at all. I’m glad I didn’t give up, and I was able to get help from my lactation consultant and have endless support from Dexter.
Eloise is gaining weight perfectly, and is a healthy girl. She is 8lbs 12oz. Eloise loves to sleep, loves to be held by her daddy, and loves drinking her milk. She is small (that’s why I call her my fairy girl) but she is feisty & so strong. She has amazing neck strength, and can hold her head up by herself. We are so in love with this little girl— she is going to be a daddy’s girl for sure. I’m pretty much chopped liver over here, and I GAVE BIRTH TO HER! HA!
I’m looking forward to watching her grow, and making memories as a family. The first month was HARD, and exhausting! But I wouldn’t have done it without having such an amazing partner. Dexter has been the one to get up with Eloise, while I’m pumping every 3 hours. Dex will let me sleep in a few more hours, and makes sure I’m eating. Having Dexter be on baby bonding leave has been truly incredible! I will be so sad when he has to go back to work.
ONE MONTH HIGHLIGHTS: Ellie has gone to Target, the park, and on her first long car ride to Marshall & Bodega Bay. She celebrated her first holiday- CHRISTMAS! Eloise has been to three restaurants with us already (and did SO GOOD)! She still fits in Newborn clothing.
I can’t wait to see what milestones month two brings! I hope you all have a Happy New Year! I’m so excited for 2019!
Hi everyone! It’s been a while, hasn’t it? Well, a lot has happened! It’s been 15 days since Eloise was born, and I need to write her birth story down before I forget it all. But lets be honest, a lot of it’s blurry already. So weird how the brain basically wipes away such a painful experience.
So, starting from the beginning…
On Thursday morning, November 29th, I woke up randomly around 4-5 am (which is so strange because I am not an early riser) and I just felt wide awake. I started to text my twin sister because she’s awake early for work. Dexter was getting ready for work, and when I got up to use the restroom I noticed my pantyliners were soaked. I knew that wasn’t normal, because that never happened before (and it was clear liquid). I made a mental note, and told Dexter, “Hey, my pantyliners were soaked! I wonder if my water broke! Make sure to keep your phone on you at all times, just incase it’s time.” Eeeeek! By now, I was EXACTLY 39 week pregnant, mind you. I told my twin sister and mom about my soaked pantyliner and told them I’d call if anything else happened. Dexter left for work, and I went about my normal day. I was having inconsistent contractions, but not really sure if it was the real deal.
Fast forward to around 6:30pm, Dex came home from work. I was sitting on our living room couch, and we were all talking when all of a sudden I stood up and felt a small gush. Dex said, “Your sweatpants are wet!” I’m not sure why, but I instantly freaked out and ran to the bathroom. Sure enough, my underwear and sweatpants were soaked! But for some reason I was still unsure if my water broke… I think I was in total denial! (this was around 7pm) I called Kaiser to see if I should come in, and they told me to lay down for 30 minutes and if I stand up and I’m leaking to come in. So, I did just that.
It was clear that I was leaking, so we decided to pack the rest of our hospital bags, get the baby’s carseat, and drive to the hospital. Now, if you were wondering if I was having horrible contractions… I wasn’t. I was definitely timing them, and they were around 5-6 minutes apart, but VERY tolerable. We arrived at the hospital around 8:30-9:00pm.
Once we got to the hospital, I went into the triage room to get monitored and to test the liquid to see if my water broke. It tested back: POSITIVE! My waters did indeed break. I was so shocked! Looking back, I’m not sure why I was in such shock, clearly it was my water that broke! Haha! I think a lot of it had to do with not knowing what to expect since this was my first time being pregnant, and going into labor. The Midwife decided to admit me, not only because my water broke, but also because my heart rate, and baby’s heart rate were elevated. They brought us to our room, and started an IV and gave me fluids. (around 10pm)
This is when things get blurry for me! At around 11:30pm my contractions really started to come on strong and HURT LIKE A BITCH. A doctor came in and wanted to start me on Pitocin because I wasn’t even a full centimeter dilated yet. So, they started the Pitocin at 1:20am (November 30th). So from 11:30pm to 1:20am I was having the WORST back labor pains. Once they gave me the Pitocin at 1:20am, I asked for some type of pain relief. They ended up giving me two doses of Fentanyl. Honestly, it helped only a little bit. The pain was all in my back, and it was by far the worst pain I ever experienced in my LIFE. I had Dexter rub my back, I used heating pads, and plus the two doses of Fentanyl, but it wasn’t enough relief. I finally got an epidural at around 5am.
Getting the epidural was the best decision, personally. I admire women who do without it, but mentally I couldn’t. The pain was so excruciating! My nurses and anesthesiologist were AMAZING. I was so scared of getting the epidural, I started crying before getting it. They were kind and talked me through the entire process. They were angels. They kept me calm, and let me feel the emotions I was feeling! Also, getting the epidural, wasn’t horrible at all. I had this image in my head, and it wasn’t at all what I expected. So if you’re terrified to get the epidural, the first initial prick (to numb you) is only the worst part & it lasts a whole 3 seconds.
So, from here on out, was a lot of waiting until I was 10cm dilated. I don’t really remember sleeping that much, or even at all! My sisters and mom finally arrived at the hospital around noon. I was so happy my twin and mom were able to make it on time, since they had to drive up from Southern California! I really wanted them all in the room with me when I delivered Eloise. Finally, after a lot of waiting, around 5pm I was 10cm dilated. It was time to push.
To help me feel the contractions, they had to turn down my epidural (UGH, hello horrible back labor pains) and adjust the Pitocin (since my contractions were a little far apart). I had the most AMAZING nurse coaching me, and helping me mentally. I was terrified and so emotional, so before pushing I broke down again. (You guys, I cried so much during my labor) Her name was D.L. and I will never forget her kind and encouraging words to help me get through the hardest experience of my life. I pushed for two whole hours before Eloise was born. And it was the most exhausting two hours of my life. During pushing, I had the WORST acid reflux/heartburn, and it was really fucking up the way I was trying to focus pushing. So the nurse brought me tums to try and help with the acid reflux. I also could feel so much of my back labor pains, so when a contraction came… it was not fun. Dexter held one leg, and my mom was able to hold my other leg while I pushed. Once Eloise’s head was poking out, Dexter was able to touch her, and I could see her in a mirror, and I also touched her head.
Then at 7:52pm, on November 30th, Eloise Audrey Colette was born. But the final pushes were the hardest, since the Midwife was having a hard time getting her out. The cord was wrapped around her neck two times, so when they placed her on my chest she was purple and not crying. I was so out of it at this point, everything was so blurry. A nurse came, and whisked Eloise away, I only had about 5 seconds with her on my chest. The amazing nurse took Eloise and started working on her to breathe. She also cleared out all the fluid from her lungs. Then I heard my daughter cry for the first time. I cried. My mom cried. Dex, and my sisters were crying. She is healthy, she is perfect.
She was finally placed in my arms and Dexter and I fell in love with her in that moment. It was a moment I had been anxiously waiting for, for nine months. I was in shock that she was actually here, finally. Let’s be honest, I’m still in shock two weeks later. I’ll look at her and just can’t believe Dexter and I made her. Half of me, half of her daddy. We are blessed.
She weighed 6lbs 5oz, 19 3/4 inches long. Born Friday, November 30th at 7:52pm. 6 days early from her due date. She decided she wanted to be a little November baby!
Also, a funny story: my family and I placed bets of when Eloise would be born, and I was the one who guessed it right. Mother’s intuition?! Lucky guess?! Who knows! But I thought that would be so funny and cool to tell Ellie when she’s older! I guessed her birthday.
Anyway, I hope you all enjoyed her birth story. These last two weeks have been overwhelming, stressful, beyond difficult, but so joyful with this perfect little human. I hope to do a one-month update, in two weeks. Dexter is an amazing father. He has been such a great partner, so supportive and loving. Eloise is so lucky to have him as her daddy.
There are so many baby products to choose from, it can be really overwhelming deciding what you actually need and what you can do without. I love to do research, but Dexter is for sure the researcher in our relationship. He will read endless reviews and compare products. Here are the main expensive & big purchases we decided on:
My parents were kind enough to buy us this amazing rocker! I’m so excited because I knew I wanted this rocker from the moment I got pregnant. I’ve heard nothing but amazing things, my twin sister has one for her baby and she loves it. They purchased it from BUYBUYBABY and here is the link if you’re interested.
NUNA PIPA LITE LX
Trying to find the perfect car seat was a challenge! At first we were dead set on the uppaBABY Mesa car seat, but after months of research we decided on the Nuna Pipa Lite LX! Not only is it beautiful, but it is the lightest car seat ever (5.7lbs)! This will really come in handy when I am by myself & have to lug the baby around. We also got to see it in person, and we love the Aspen blue color! The thing that “sold” Dexter is the true lock base installation, which is 50% stronger than the typical belt latch. We are excited to install it in the car, and see our little girl snug in it for the first time. We are getting ours from a local baby store: here is the link if interested.
NUNA 2019 TAVO STROLLER IN ASPEN
Since we are getting the Nuna car seat, it was a no brainer to get the matching stroller! It is GORGEOUS! I absolutely love the way it looks, and how easy it is to fold & unfold. (watch this video to see the stroller) I’m looking forward to using it, and maybe I can make a blog post with my honest review, in 6 months or so! Here is the link to the stroller. But if you’re like me, and buying them TOGETHER, you can see it from this link.
SNUGGLE ME ORGANIC IN BLOOM
I wanted to get Eloise a lounger that she could use for naps + sleeping in, but also to lay her on to relax. This snuggle me is super soft, and is made from organic fabric. It is machine washable, and hypoallergenic. There are a few other baby loungers on the market, but this one seemed to be the most comfortable for baby. I also got it on sale, which was a huge PLUS! If you are interested here is the link. I purchased the bloom color (so pretty) but also love it in Ember. I might pick up this shade after she is born, so I have a backup cover when one is dirty. My twin sister also has one for baby Adelaide & she loves it!
NUNA X PBK SENA AIRE PLAYARD IN BROKEN ARROW
So, technically I haven’t purchased this yet… but I definitely am going to. I think it’s important to have a travel-ready playard for when we visit family in Southern California or take weekend trips. It’s also good for her to take naps in or to play in when she’s a toddler (she can use this until she’s 3 years old). I love the color & design– it’s very clean and simple. Here is the link if you’re interested.
These are some of the big items we have decided on! I hope this was helpful for some of you, if you’re expecting or getting ready to start trying to have a baby! I am happy with the choices we have made. Some items aren’t on here like a crib or changing table because 1) she’s not getting a crib until she’s 6 months old, she will be sleeping in a small bassinet and 2) we didn’t purchase a changing table, instead we have a changing pad on top of her dresser!
If you have some big items that I didn’t mention, I would love to know. 🙂 I hope you all have a wonderful week ahead!
*I do not own any of these photos, I got them from their websites
*I am not affiliated with any of these links, and do not get paid for linking these items. These are all purchased with my own money, or gifted from family.
I haven’t updated you on my pregnancy, since week 30. There’s been a lot of things to update you all on. I am getting so big, it’s incredible to see my body changing so much! I got my first stretch marks on my stomach *insert sad face*. There’s about 3 on my stomach, it was bound to happen though! I keep lathering oil & lotion everyday, just to keep my belly moisturized.
I officially packed my hospital bag! AHHHHH! I have the majority of it packed & ready to go, including baby’s blankets, outfits, and bows! I just need the last items thrown in there (toothbrush, toothpaste, hair brush, contact solution & contacts, etc). Packing my bag made things SO REAL. It’s insane that my due date is exactly 4 weeks away! I’m hoping she comes a little earlier though 😉 We are just too excited to meet her, not to mention I’m very uncomfortable!
Insomnia– Man, this one has been killer. Sleep is a luxury now! I cannot get comfortable to save my life! I’m usually up past midnight, and waking up every few hours tossing/turning. When people tell you “Oh, get all the sleep you can get before baby comes, because once baby is here… you won’t get any” Can I just vent & say that is a crock of shit?! Now that I’ve experienced pregnancy & am 36 weeks, that statement is a LIE. When you’re pregnant, you’re not sleeping peacefully! I honestly think it’s the body’s way to prepare for whats to come though. END RANT. Haha!
Exhaustion– This one is a no brainer! Since I’m not getting a good night’s sleep, I have ZERO energy throughout the day. Sometimes I take naps but I try not to, so when night comes I hope I’ll just knock out. Hah! It’s a horrible cycle these past few weeks!
Peeing all night– I’m up every hour or two, peeing. It’s like my first trimester all over again!
Increase in aches & pains– Pregnancy is no joke! Eloise’s head is DOWN now, and I’m pretty sure my belly has dropped because I feel a lot of pressure on my bladder! Getting out of bed is hard, tying my shoes is nearly impossible, and putting on my jeans is painful.
Braxton Hicks and Cramping– Sometimes I get cramps that feel like period cramps, but they don’t stay around for long periods of time. I was getting braxton hicks contractions a few weeks ago, but I haven’t felt one in awhile.
Nesting– I’ve been nesting for weeks! It’s not an everyday thing, but I’ll get these random bursts of energy/feeling the urge to clean and organize. I’ve washed all of her clothes and blankets, I’ve organized her dresser, and I’ve been trying to keep my own room clean! I can’t wait to install her carseat and buy her stroller (the last things I need)!
I have the baby’s bassinet set up, her mamaroo ready, and some diapers bought! I think I’m as “ready” as I possibly can be. My twin sister gave birth almost 3 months ago, so she’s been my go-to person to ask for advice and comfort me when I’m feeling overwhelmed or really anxious.
I can’t wait to meet this little peanut. I’m feeling so many emotions these last few weeks of being pregnant! I’m going to do my best to savor these last moments because who knows if and when I’ll ever get pregnant again! I know one day I’ll miss my pregnant belly and her kicks!
Hi everyone! I’m so excited because I get to share a product I’ve been using for a couple weeks now, that I love! If you haven’t read my first review for Carbon Coco- READ IT HERE. I’m so grateful that they were kind enough to send me their new flavor SWEET MINT ACTIVATED CHARCOAL TOOTH POLISH.
After trying the sweet mint flavor, I actually now prefer it over the original, just because I love mint-flavor EVERYTHING! It’s so refreshing and available for a limited time only, so pick up a few of these while you can (a little goes a long way)! After using the activated charcoal tooth polish, I then brush my teeth with the activated charcoal toothpaste, which is in spearmint flavor– yum!
I’m a huge coffee drinker, and I’ve noticed these products helped make my teeth whiter! My teeth were never horribly yellow to begin with, but they definitely weren’t as white as they are now after using the tooth polish & toothpaste!
Also, you may be wondering (since I am pregnant) are these products safe to use while pregnant & breastfeeding? If you take a look at their FAQ PAGE it is safe! These are 100% natural products, and when you’re pregnant your gums are more sensitive– so take care of your mouth! Also, for you animal lovers out there– they do NOT test on animals! That’s something I think is super important, and I’m proud to use their products!
Like I’ve mentioned before on my previous review for Carbon Coco, these do NOT make my teeth sensitive, like other teeth whitening products have before in the past. That’s probably the biggest plus about Carbon Coco! If you’re thinking about giving them a try, go to their WEBSITE. The next items from their website I’d love to try is the CARBON AQUA FLOSSER & their TONGUE CLEANER. These both look amazing! I hope you all give them a try as well!
*c/o Carbon Coco, all thoughts and reviews are my own.
Last weekend we took a drive to Half Moon Bay, to visit the pumpkin patch. It was my first time here, and it was such a nice drive! I’m so glad I got to cross this off my Autumn to-do list this year. I definitely wanted some pictures with my big bump so I’m able to look back on for memories! It was a little overcast at first, but the sun eventually came out.
I’m 33 weeks pregnant here! Man, pregnancy is exhausting, and sleep is a joke! I am constantly tossing and turning, it’s so frustrating. But I guess it’s good in a way, since it’ll prepare me for those sleepless nights the first few months.
We went on a hospital tour a few days ago, and it’s just getting more real. In under 6 weeks I’ll be holding sweet E in my arms!
I can’t believe we are at the end of October! HOW?! I hope you all have a wonderful rest of the month & a HAPPY HALLOWEEN!
This past weekend, we drove down to Southern California to have our baby shower with friends and family. It was in this adorable event space in Burbank, and it turned out exactly how I envisioned it! My color theme was gold, blush pink, and peach.
This whole time I’ve only mentioned our baby’s first name to close family and friends, but never announced it on social media! Well I thought posting the baby shower photos would be the perfect opportunity to announce her first name (we are keeping her FULL name secret until I give birth).
Our little girl’s name is… ELOISE. Ellie or Elle for short. I am in love with her name.
My sisters did such a wonderful job helping me set up the event space! I’m so glad we got to shower sweet Eloise with love before her big arrival in a few weeks. I was 31 weeks pregnant at the baby shower, and tomorrow (Thursday) I’m turning 32 weeks! HOLY CRAP! We are like 8 weeks away from her due date.
It’s a waiting game now! My sister had her baby one day before her due date, so I’m dying to know when she will be here! Will she be early, and be born at the end of November? Or will she be born past her due date? I’m so anxious! Regardless, she’ll be here in 1 month and give or take 25 days. I still have to do so much: buy a carseat, wash her little baby clothes, organize her dresser, put together her bassinet, etc. I’m in full-blown nesting mode now.
I was also thrilled to see my niece again! I hadn’t seen her since she was one week old, and she’s almost two months old now! It’s always hard to say goodbye, but knowing I’ll see my family in under two months again, makes me super happy! And this time… it’ll be with Eloise! We are all so excited for her arrival.
Wow, September flew by! I am officially 26 years old! My birthday was yesterday, and I had a really chill day with family. Dexter surprised me with tickets to see Death Cab for Cutie at the Berkeley Greek Theater & it was AMAZING! I couldn’t have asked for a better birthday surprise! I’m ready to make twenty-six an amazing year, it’s definitely going to be a milestone age (the year I become a mother, what can top that?!)
I am already 30 weeks pregnant, and I turn 31 weeks on Thursday! WOW. It’s so insane, I only have 2 months and 5 days left until my due date… but she can be here as soon as 37 weeks & be considered full term! AHHH!
I’m a lot more uncomfortable now, and I cannot be on my feet for long periods of time anymore. For instance, when I was at the concert we got there at around 4:30-5, we stood and waited until the doors opened at 6 & the concert was done by 10! I was DYING by the end of it. My feet and back hurt so bad, and the day after the concert I felt like a truck had hit me. Ha! It just made me realize that I cannot do stuff like that for the time being.
Some more pregnancy symptoms: I have been experiencing Braxton Hicks, I’m out of breath a lot of the time, and I found my first stretch mark on my stomach! 🙁 I was sad about the stretch mark, but I can’t dwell on it because I already have them on my thighs and such. I’ll keep rubbing oil/lotions on them, and hopefully it won’t be too bad.
My baby shower is on the 6th, I’m excited, but also stressed because I want everyone to enjoy themselves and have a good time. I have my baby shower outfit ready, I’m going to get my hair done at Dry Bar, and I have all my decorations bought for the event space. I’m hoping to get some beautiful pictures from the event, and post them here! Stay tuned… Hope you all have an amazing rest of the week! I need to go pack tomorrow for our road trip down to Southern California on Thursday.
I can’t believe I’m in my THIRD TRIMESTER! I am now 28 weeks pregnant & I can feel my body changing everyday. The baby is getting bigger, and so is my belly. I’d say my second trimester was awesome, especially having the amount of energy I had! But I noticed as soon as I was creeping closer to my third trimester, my energy levels shifted & lowered! Bummer. Back to being tired again.
Also, I’ve been having MAJOR pubic/pelvic pain. It hurts when I walk, it hurts when I try to change my pants, it hurts when I’m trying to change positions in bed. I know it’s all apart of my body adjusting and making room for baby + the added weight, but this part of pregnancy isn’t so “fun”. Speaking of weight gain, I’m on track! My midwife said I’m not gaining too much, which is awesome! I know I still have about 12 weeks left (give or take), so I’m hoping I stay within the healthy range of weight gain!
I did have my 1 hour glucose test, and I passed that- which was a huge relief! I do not want gestational diabetes, and the thought alone is terrifying! I did mention that I have anterior placenta, and I couldn’t really feel the baby strongly for the longest time! But once I hit around 24-25 weeks, BAM she started moving a lot! I’m feeling her move every night and morning now. I must say, it’s a pretty incredible feeling! It’s so surreal that MY baby is inside me, moving around. I still can’t fathom that I’m having a child! It’s an awesome feeling, and I’m so grateful I get to experience it. My body continues to surprise and amaze me with this pregnancy!
Now I’m just preparing for our baby to come! I am having my baby shower in early October, and I’m excited to celebrate with close family + friends. I hope to document the baby shower with lots of photos! I’ll make sure to have someone be the camera person, since I already know I’ll be super busy talking to everyone, and enjoying the evening. Anyway, if you’re curious what my second trimester favorites were- keep reading! Keep in mind, my pregnancy is super easy & I feel like I’ve been pretty low maintenance.
4. water tumbler- I couldn’t help myself & bought THIS ADORABLE ONE. You need to make sure you’re drinking a lot of water! It’s easier to have some sort of bottle to take with you everywhere.
5. comfy shoes for walking- Currently eyeing THESE or THESE!
6. Ina May’s guide to childbirth- THIS BOOK. I have so much anxiety/fear about giving birth & reading this book has truly helped with those fears! Even if you’re not expecting to give birth “all natural”, it’s still VERY helpful and eye-opening. I highly recommend reading this!
I hope this list does help you, if you’re currently pregnant or thinking about getting pregnant. I’m curious to see how my last trimester goes. I’m terribly nervous and anxious for the arrival of baby girl E. I’m sure these last 12 weeks are going to fly by! Until then, I’m going to soak up these LAST moments of being childless.